I am a huge foodie and I am constantly watching the Food Network. Ironically enough I don’t cook very often. So I have started doing much more and my first meal was one I know like the back of my hand. I decided to make angel pasta with white sauce served next to chicken, mushrooms and onions. The chicken and vegetables tasted great and the pasta was cooked perfectly al dente but I somehow let the white sauce bowl more than it should have and it got very thick and chunky looking. Without thinking I poured the sauce onto the pasta anyway, needless to say it was a mess that ended with me eating my dinner in the basement away from my family crying.
I hate that I reacted so strongly to a tiny little mistake like this one but that’s the way I act whenever I make a mistake. I still get so wrapped up in trying to reach this notion of perfection that I tend to miss the greater picture the important parts of life. I wasn't able to enjoy a meal with my family because I was so embarrassed. I know that perfection is this unattainable concept and if I attempt to reach for it I am setting myself up to fail because nothing I do will ever reach perfection.
I can happily say that I didn’t let that small disaster stop from cooking other dinners. The week after that I made a pizza that I was really proud of. I made my own dough topped with my mother’s amazing homemade pasta sauce, garlic chicken, red peppers, and one red onion. I can’t wait to continue cooking different foods. Cooking for me makes me feel the same way painting does because I put so much of myself into my work that when it doesn’t come out the way I like I feel as though its personal. I now appreciate my mom’s hard work so much more than I ever realized because cooking for my family is not an easy thing!

"The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself." -Anna Quindlen
"A beautiful thing is never perfect." -Proverb
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-Angela