I started this blog my senior year of high school because I was in a creative writing class that required me to write every single day until the end of the semester. I created this blog so I could post the entries I thought weren’t so bad or about topics I really cared about. Now two years later I am sitting on my own kitchen chair in my very own apartment, staring at the cracked screen of my incredibly old lap top wondering what has called me back to the world of internet blogging. Maybe it’s because in the two years that have gone by so much has changed and I find myself trying to hold on. Trying to hold on to some of my old dreams and desires and prove that someday I will accomplish all the things I used to talk about romantically. I am not complaining about my new life, it’s just about everything I wanted minus the super cool, thrifty, vintage furniture I thought would magically appear in my apartment. (Making an apartment look cool is a lot of work and even more money!)
In September of 2011 I married a man I had met in November of 2010 and we found out I was expecting on January of 2012. As you can see we were busy. None of this really shocks me. I've always lived life in fast forward and I honestly couldn’t be happier and more excited for the new family I have to love and care for. However as I prepare myself for the adventures of motherhood I fear for the possible loss of my identity. Therefore why not start writing again, about whatever it is I seem to love. Who knows maybe one day if blogspot is still around my own children will be able to read my thoughts and get to know me better as a person? So I am embark on this adventure of motherhood very soon and if you are an expecting mom or already a mother that may feel the same way I do please feel free to share your stories.
-An expecting mother trying to remain herself
Beautiful writing... Sometimes in life we move to fast and we do lose ourselves. That's why its best to make sure we're ready for the challenges such as marriage and motherhood before we jump right in. It's best to wait for an age where we have already accomplished and reached most of our dreams, before we go into something much bigger than us... something that might get in the way of accomplishing our dreams and the things that make us who we are.
ReplyDeleteBut, I am sure you will do fine with your new life, because you are bringing another life into the world. I am sure you'll be a wonderful mother and wife. Try not to worry so much about remaining yourself, but about how you will raise this new life. How you will teach him/her that being yourself is the most important thing in life, because life is to short to be anyone else. Teach him/her to go after your dreams, reach for the stars, but most of all... Keep God first, and nothing will be impossible.
God bless :)